What’s your perception of uni? If your at uni think ‘why are you at uni?’… I’d like to hope that for most of you it’s because you have a geniuine interest in the degree you are doing, and want and wish to learn more about your chosen field of study. That’s at least what it is for me (most of the time). I try to put in my 110% effort in order to come out feeling and knowing that I’ve achieved something… knowing that I’ve pushed myself that little bit further and finding out more about myself and my potential at the same time. Unfortunatley for most others maybe this isn’t quite the case. And it’s moments and times like these that I really don’t know why the fsck I went to uni. I’m not going to leech my assignment code of someone else, or write some half flubbed words worthy of toliet paper… I’m going to give it my best shot. Otherwise I’ll never know what I’m capable of. And these days I don’t… sometimes I occasionally surprise myself and moments like that is great… but others I can be fscked. I feel that certain forces/happenings are stopping me from reaching further above. It’s times like these that I seriously consider changing my chosen path. I probably will, and I don’t really caee, my passion still lies where it is, it’s just that I don’t think a reality of working in it is one which will work. Yeah I guess you could say I have been considering recently a possible career change… certain aspects of uni have made me despise/dislike areas of IT… and changed my mind about how I feel about particular things…

Firstly I don’t think uni properly shapes you for the real world and or your chosen field etc whatever you want to call it. You can’t just set assignments ‘cos everyone copies, and whilst exams/tests are the supposed ways to tell the real difference they are not. Papers are often written with no consistency or clarity are ambigious and don’t adequatley test sometimes knowledge. It’s not about what you can pull out at a certain time by rote learning but what you understand in your mind and heart that matters. And what’s in your mind and heart is something that matters in everything else.

I’m really keen to finish my degree at the moment… if I change careers I’ll finished in about a year and a half, so lets see how things go…

Really I’m just confused and puzzled at the moment…