Few hours since last post. Actually feeling kind of better now. It’s really weird, like 2 years on. Today was just weird. I just suddenly have an overwhelming number of thoughts, feelings, emotions all hit me at the one time. I guess the difference is now I know it’ll pass kind of an up and down wave, with long periods of calm in the middle of the next. Funny how when I write out my inner thoughts and feelings, I’m alot more expressive and passionate about what I write.

To anyone who read the previous stuff, don’t worry about me I don’t think I’m going to do anything stupid. I guess I figure doing stupid stuff doesn’t really fix the problem… it makes those feelings channel into some other part, but after the feeling goes away your still stuck in the same old hole. The window is open and I can hear and feel the air, that is enough.