Blah so yesterday I studied for a good most of the day, got bored mid way so read this article about Gush and so downloaded it then spent an hour or so configuring it. It’s pretty okay, I like the RSS feeds, but I don’t like the idea of the ‘container’. Dunno much more used to seperate panels for each window. The big panel makes it seem clunky. I’ll probably stay with it though, ‘cos it runs MSN and ICQ as well – uses Jabber network, so it’s got gateways to MSN and ICQ network if that makes sense. Then did some more study, then watched Bad Boys 2 cos my head was getting stuffed around and lightheaded. But yeah that’s about it really. Today is my last full study day, because tomorrow I have half a day and then its Offspring at night.

In other stuff, should I continue working at uni next semeseter? I’m thinking of applying for a different subject this coming semester. Hopefully they haven’t hired people yet. But its kind of dependent on how my results go now I think. Pity we don’t find results out till like 2 weeks before spring semester starts :-S. I have a little desire to program at the moment. And I also have the uni is crap thought going… lol I pay 5+ grand a year to go to uni for 26 weeks to learn stuff some of which I ready know to be assessed in ways which don’t really show anything in the end. I guess that what happens in life. But yeh doesn’t it make you want to quit… though I don’t even know what I want to do in life. Stuff I’d consider as ideal for me (stuff I like) i reckon would be seen as a potential waste of intelligence… and it probably very well is. But what is intelligence? Everyone is unique in their own way so we can’t exactly agree upon a term can we?

It’s kind of like an end adolescent crisis I think. The fact that soon I will have to be part of the big world, which I’m scared off??? Not scared but not exactly likened to. It’s not really right to use the terms but somehow I see myself fitting into a blue collar world better than a white. Life’s about choices isn’t it? But we just never know if we’ve made the right choices… and I guess we never do, we just sit wondering for the rest of our life.

Sorry you have to listen to my rambles (whoever’s reading)… if anyone has any ideas of what I should do yell.